Tomorrow I turn 55, and I kind of love this age and all it represents. This birthday reminds me of my old restaurant days when I waited tables in the
Practice Notes – Jan 19
I've been taking Buddhism classes with Jungto Society, and I love them. The classes teach about the history, the philosophy, and the principles of
Shortcut to Autopilot
A few times in my life, I discovered a tool so powerful, that it's use alone was enough to reach a goal. From about 15 on, all I've really wanted
Dear Young Fury,
You are in the hospital, intubated after your 5th attempt, and I still have yet share this truth with you. I hope it helps you know yourself and find
Survival is a fast car
On a recent talk the speaker asked her audience how many were "in survival mode." One quarter of the hands went up.* I found this revelatory, not
“getting it” by being grounded
Hi T & O! Hey, you totally don't want to hear a lecture from me, but I have so much to tell you before I get too old, or confused or can't
Ode to my mom’s memory
"I'm living two timelines moving in different directions." I sat up in bed and said that to my husband last night. I've been plagued by night
Sacrifice
The US Constitution says I don’t have to sacrifice my life in any way to anyone who cannot live without my contribution. No one does. No person
Coping: Part II in the Working Toward Transformation series
Last post was supposed to be about forgiveness, but wound up as an angry, toxic diatribe. I'll guess I'll call that Part I. I'm okay with this,
Rose Garden Ruse
I've been furious. I've been feeling so enraged I make memes like this: I've been arguing, repeating myself, and get outraged over and over. I
Testimony 2019
This was originally written as testimony to RI state legislature to help pass the RPA in RI in 2019. I'm finally (in 2023) able to claim the story as
to women who’ve made themselves a holy mess of wonderfulness
This is a shout out to all women, like me, who have experienced trauma and made themselves a holy mess of wonderfulness. This is a shout out to the
Dart Dart Dart
Dart. Dart. Dart. Rest. Dart. Dart. Dart. Finger, thumb moving. Eyes darting. Soul wondering. Entertainment! A Life! Exciting!
I am my dogs
A generation ago, I had a dream, and I told my mentor about it. Black dogs are barking at me. It is depression. It looks like this (I showed him a
Sinking Gifts. Rising Queen
I have been prone to depression, as have many of the women in my family. As are, no doubt, many others who are reading this. I have also been prone
The Honest.
I go to the same places on the web, over and over. I keep looking for something, and I'm not sure what it is. Outrage, solace, connection,
Why I march
I am marching for all women's sovereign right to control their own bodies. Always. Same for men. I march for equal pay, for equal access to medical
The superpower I wish I had
My daughter asked me my superpower and origin story. The first thing that came to mind was a ball, that came into being by the beauty of the Aurora
The annual sadness
There is something special about being a woman, and especially hard, I think. See sometimes I remember that it is an anniversary of a bad day... years
Anxiety Sideliner
There have been a few times in my life when anxiety attacks have changed the direction of my life. I think now, that I'm probably not the only one.
blue brain, fooled mood
Sometimes I wonder if there is a purpose to experiencing depression "old school style," sleeping long hours, staying in bed, not talking, feeling
another aging lady post
What can I say that hasn't already been said on the topic? That I watched this episode of Veep and found myself educated? That as I approach 50 with
This might take a while…
In the middle of another sleepless night, I decided to give up outrage. It's been flying around me from left and right, perhaps correctly, but it's
A plan for coping with inauguration weekend
Here is what I am doing during the inauguration on Friday: 1) donating to the ACLU- RI (www.riaclu.org/get-involved/donate) 2) donating to Planned
Self Care Salvation
[first posted on Nov 10, 2016] I have been feeling shocked. But I will not stay there. When you are in shock, for real, you need stuff to survive. You
Who’s carrying…
... the emotion of the situation? In every intense interaction between people, an emotional 'bubble' gets created. Usually this bubble is experienced
Calm after a storm
Holidays at home with little ones means super secrets, high anticipation, late nights, big messes, bigger food and lots of opportunities to make
watching water drops turn to birds
So, I've been missing poetry in my life, or more like, missing the poetry of life. I used to get my fill by watching period costume pieces (think
Authenticity v Indulgence
Wow, I just looked at my home page and it started off with two very yucky titles: The dark dog of exhaustion and the deep suck of depression... I
Dark dog of exhaustion
I love to watch my kids sleep. I enjoy this for many reasons; to witness a state of deep relaxation, to observe their sweet features, and to know
The Deep Suck of Depression
I've been around depressed people. You can feel it. It's like they have more gravity, and their energy pulls on you. It makes you want to run away,
Empowering questions*
I've got no idea what to write today, so perhaps it is time to feed my mind some new questions to chew on. Such as; What can I do right now to