During a rough patch in my life, I had a life-changing experience that I was the last person in the world to get “It.” “It” was an understanding that I was a meaningful part of the entirety of life, an important member, and simultaneously, an insignificant one. I felt, during this breakdown, that every single being in my life was infinitely patient with me as I got my shit together and started to behave with love toward the collective of humanity. That I had to, in order for all of us to make it. I felt the enormous love and patience directed at my sorry self, as I was ushered into this understanding that everything matters.
I took a quiet vow at that time, that I would help others, in the same way as I had been helped. I am still grateful for that experience. I also made a decision to live fully in the world, and act in a real and grounded way too, so as not to cop out to escapism. This has not been easy.
Nowadays, I wonder if an individual’s psyche can become so self-consumed, that it can’t– even superficially– grasp that other people matter. Could it be that sometimes a person is so damaged, that it takes a whole nation, a whole world even, to help them awaken to the reality of “us”?
Sometimes a person seems to get along just fine, until something terrible happens… to everyone else. Sometimes, this person still doesn’t notice what is happening because of their actions, or truly can’t care, because caring would mean a deep and powerful reckoning of a lifetime of selfish actions.
I wonder if an intervention is required to help such a person person to get “It.” But how can an intervention work, if a person subsumed by images of themselves, doesn’t care if it is love or hate sent their way… as long as they get pushed into the forefront of consciousness (in this case, a collective mirror: the media)?
Silence is the way. The only way. Yet, who is willing to stop doing their own job in order to help this happen? Does anyone else notice that their own energy (good or bad) feeds this ferocious beast? Can you stop feeding it? Can you help this person get “It”? Do you get “It”?
Do you know who I am thinking about? Would you like this person to wake up to understand that everything matters? The truth matters. People lives matter. Safety matters. Peace and liberty matter. The Earth matters. Love matters? Can we forgive this person when their moment happens? Does the moment have to be dramatic? Or can it be quiet and private, and we all get to carry on living our lives without devastation of all we hold dear?
I pray for my own ability to forgive; and for awakening happening gently. I pray for my own ability to keep my spiritual vow, and still act in the world exactly how it is needed. This is about as hard as it has ever been, but I have faith even this person will get “It” … sooner or later.