My heart needs softening today. See, I’ve been feeling angry at many loved ones. Those who won’t go on adventures, those who choose TV. Those who choose others over me. Those who don’t appreciate all the loose ends I keep. Those who live like paupers for fun, and cause pain and heartache for everyone. Those who don’t help when I yearn for it. Those who just don’t get it.
Those who say I make a big deal, about each little thing, each meal.
Life is apparently much easier for many. But for me today, things are sandy…
I ache not for a special beach, but for the mountains I’ll probably never see. I seek Africa, but find it only through a screen. My life is not much like I thought it would be.
It is ordinary.
Still, there are colors, and love and messinesses everywhere. There are moments when my soul-journey pokes through, reminds me of my 20s. Places, moments, signs and colors. Altars, prayers, chants, sand and tears.
I’ll find some peace. (Thank you)