I have 10 minutes to write this post. My goal is to only share truth, and that which helps set people free.
This morning I discovered a bevy of problems: a client’s website is down and he’s angry, my son feels sick, my daughter lied to me, my husband wasn’t paying attention to something he said he’d handle, it blew up. The furnace man is coming right in the middle of my work calls, a colleague gave me bad info, which means I need to fix stuff…
I wanted to feel a victim. I wanted to, so I could feel like superwoman when I held up through all of them, handling tasks and taking no prisoners. “Getting stuff done.” But I also remembered what the Buddha said when someone came to him with a long list of what ailed him.
“You know what your only problem is?”
What
“That you think you shouldn’t have any problems.”
Now that I know this, I realize I actually only have one problem: the belief I have to do something every minute to address whatever’s in front of me. To show off my worldly skills, while playing victim. So embarrassing to admit.
But, maybe I don’t.
Maybe I can write this, calm down, and see how nature advises me?
So far, I feel peaceful… and the website is fixed. That was handled by someone other than me.
It’s nice to take time for myself.
