“I’m stretched too thin !”
I’m pretty sure I’ve been saying this to anyone who would listen, including playing this complaint on internal repeat for the last two months.
And I’ve been practicing with a lovely Buddhism class too. A saving grace while navigating difficult times.
A week or so ago, after spending the morning with my kids in my Dad’s new spot (a skilled nursing facility in Pittsburgh), I took my kids to the hotel pool to regroup between visits.
The older people in the elevator smiled, “how nice you are going swimming with them.” I replied with a sarcastic wink, “whether I want to or not.” I really just want to run away from everything crying, or go to bed for 3 weeks.
30 minutes later in the pool, Odin is pulling my arm in one direction, Tasslen grabbing my leg and pulling in the other. They are splashing and laughing. I’m trying not to think about what hard things are coming next.
“Look mom! We got you. You are soooooo stretched!” I feel water, buoyancy, I hear kids giggling – their voices echo in the room, I’m warm.
Yes, stretched.
and in that moment, a real moment, it feels so good.
May life make silly little jokes for you too, giving you buoyancy and smiles in real time. May your complaints become awakenings, May you feel the love and splash happiness.
Merry Christmas
From Facebook Dec 24, 2022